todae... i had orientation again.... how interesting.a whole day of stupid games n stupid forfeits and manisha just skipped school to attend someone's wedding. shiet. so i was stuck wif my class. played stupid games like enimal farm. i was a donkey. and i dunno wad sound a donkey makes so im like DONKAY DONKAY and then i was founf the moment i took my third step. how nice of my fellow donkey frens. and then we played some other stupid games n then diana came n crashed my class and im like wtf.. and now she thinks tt one m my frens likes her.. fat hope dude.. hes taken by some girl whose height is 150++ and whose 30 cm shorter than he is and is in secondary4 this yr.. how dumb... and then only MY class got dismissed at 2 todae cos my teacher is such a nice guy n im sorry abt saying tt hes very gay... =( sorry mr wee. well then i came home n a slacking time n then went for lunch wif kai n jason and then i bought some big chocolate gold coins =) and then jason cut his hair n here i am typing this crap n waiting for my fone bill >.< which comes tomorrow

ok.. guess wad.. im in a fucked up mood everydae.. and nothing much is really helping me unwind.. no.. i cant do my stupid homework. and i cant pay attention in class.. i jus cant unwind ..and. im so fucking stressed by like... nothingness.. wad rubbish. stressed by nothing. anyway. our group in yj has jus got slpitted up into different classes.. but at least im in the same class as zaw lin.. slimey number 2. well then i left school early.. dun see any point in staying since i wun focus.. went muchin wif mo. had some fun looking at grosteque pictures. o.o ok..grace calls me, sounds sianed wadever.. im sian too. but who cares. so yea.then i went home. had some nice bathe. scratch some scratch and win. won nothing. -.- then called grace. she had to hang up the min i said hi. wadever. and then.. its me online here. and then.. tomorrow will be another fucked up day . wala. the end

woooo fun day it was yesterdae =) i went to mo's house in the morning and we went to watch meet the fockers.. then walked around j8 n then i had to rush home for piano..after piano, i rushed out again to meet mo for his fren's gig sorta thingy.. and then wehn i was waiting at the bus stop for the bus, my piano teacher came to the rescue in his cool banana yellow sports car which looks ever so cool and drove me to mo's house.. haha saved me 45 cents.. then mo cooked some instant noodles wif egg for both of us to munch on and then we set off for bukit merah.. the performance was good man.. and bloody.. the guy can sing.. and so can the rest of the ppl.. of cos some cant sing very well la.. and man does mo's fren play the piano n guit darn well.. haha anyway then after tt we went home.. got my parents to drive me home from mo's house.. and todae, i had drums.. got boxed in the eye by my bro.. it was an accident la.. but since im entering my pmsing mode.. i got pissed n started cursing n swearing all over the place.. well anyway.. updates for yj life.. yj life.. is sucky.. the band sucks la.. tts all i can say.. >.<>.< lucky girl.. my schooling hours are getting longer and longer all the time n im coped up in school everydae until like 4 plus.. m.. bro and all went for soccer match.. singapore versus indonesia.. didnt tell me.. so i didnt go in the end.. and celine's er.. getting on wif life really well.. wif joanna and frens. heard she came down todae.. at 3... when i was having a bad time whacking the soundless drum pads..heard shes always down on sundaes.. guess shes doing the thing she does i told grace abt last time.. hai i dun care liao la.. m.. dunno wads happening around me =) im going wif the flow man wohoooooooooo hm.. i dun feel like as if im close to anyone now except for mo =).. well u see.. grace n ally are my best buds.. but since school started, nothing's been going on between the three of us.. only gone out together once. no conversation wadsoever going on between the three of us and there just aint any interaction anymore la ..hm... drifting? man i dunno. maybe it can be counted as that la.. well anyway... im not gonna go deep into tt yea.. so in conclusion, todae was pretty great and so was yesterdae =)

mm... feeling alright right now.. got band practice tomorrow.. dunno doing wad oso la.. dun really care.. man i need some support for some of the stuff tt i wanna do.. everyone's going against me in one way or another..well maybe no one feels it but i do.. hell yea.. well so.. norman's still on abt his non existant girl/// n im still on abt getting out of my bloody school..u know the feeling tt u get when u think tt no one can really hear u? yea im getting alot of tt. well then school's really boring.. n lectures all suck.. learning all sorts of rubbish.. n i got back my stupid pop quiz chem test ..jus passed.. right how nice.. so much for being smart.. hahah.. haiiiiiiiiiiii life sucks. everything sucks. no one gifs a shit. i dun gif a shit too anyway.. oh god wad am i toking abt.ahhhh im feeling irritated n pissed n dissed n tired all at the same time and its fucking killing me la.. but ahhh dun care la.. im gonna be merry n happy n dun care abt the world and its expectations for me.. shit,, im sprouting nonsense.. im gonna take away my tagboard... so tt i dun get the idea tt no one comes... so yea.. gonna do it soon.well, grace is getting on wif life well for sure.. and mine still sucks.. i think im gettin more enemies n everyone around me is either pissed tt i dun pay much attention to them or its jus tt they're pissed cos they think tt im not giving them ENOUGH of me..hai.. dunno la... i dun care la.. i only know tt from now on, im sticking to ppl tt im close to only.. im gonna be even more anti-social than ever man..when am i gonna actually feel truly happy again man.. i hate this..i hate this shit i wanna go back to sec 3 or 4 i dun care 3 or 4 i jus wanna go back. ahhhh life is boring man.... ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh i hate schoool i hate the stupid long studying and not studying hours of being coped up in the bloody school compound i hate norman i hate pimpy n all the bitches tt comes along wif them. ahh maybe i should jus go abroad la.. fiack.. but i dun wan... ahhh IM SO WHINEY I CANT STAND MYSELF.. wad a problem kid.. i need a councilor

mmmmtodae was ok.. jus felt a little depressed earlier.. than i cried a little on the bus.. feel good now.. haha played fatal frame jus now.. so horrible man n scarey but i like scaring myself so its fine =) anyway, i managed to save the game so im damn happy cos i played all the way by myself until chapter 3.. and i killed so many ghosts wif zero hit haha i oso did some double hits n core shots.. hahaha cool yea.. man im good =)

m.. well im gonna update about todae.. stupid day todae was... first thing in the morning i went to the canteen and got myself a cup of hot milk tea like i always do in st margs when i go for breakfast wif grace.. man do i miss the old days man... i wanna be in an all girls school again.. so muhc funner n u can tok openly n "u can scratch ur butt freely" like wad manisha said.. man.. i wonder hows it goin on for the rest of my frens.. like grace sam olive n ally.. at least i know tt sam olive n grace are entertained but ally's like .. doing nothing i guess,,, poor girl.. i dunno wads shes doing now n i dunno hows she getting on. well , at least grace's got sam n olivia.. i only got manisha n gurveen n gurveen isnt even in the same class as me n i only see her after school when we go home together.. and im exposed to all kinds of shit .. and i think my bloody school's like trying to promote boy girl relationships.. thier crazy man i swear. they're making all the girls to hold hands wif the guys.. ok two of the ,ass dances were fun la.. the retro one n the third one.. just tt the third one involves alot of contact tts why i hate it.. adn they even got this stupid proposing part n the girls are supposed to act cute n go eeeeee...*lame* anyway.. todae for mass dance, i got a partner tts only a little taller than me and is attached.. so we're like "say sorry to ur boyfriend for me ok? i feel so bad im holding his girl's hand" and im like."tell ur gf sorry man.. tell her to relax cos i aint gonna take her guy away n i dun intend to touch him again.." so we're like.. ok .. lets jus get this over adn done wif..then we jus danced n finished it.. and i dunno why, my kidney hurt.. well and we had lectures.. guess wad we're learning for chem... ATOMS N MOLECULES and wads an isotope .. and im like -.-'' sweat drop.. then when school ended we were all cheering for our house like siao n for our own classes..and man does our class haf class spirit.well then i met gurveen at the gate n the diotic guy was stil following me apparently,. he nv disappears u noe,, n its getting on my nervves..hes like a thorn in my flesh n a pain in my ass man,,, hai... well wadever la.. if he pushes my patience too far, hes dead,, yay.. eating wif mo tomolo... hope i can eat wif grace soon. shes like going thru hell la...but so am i man.. so who am i to ask her to relax and take it easy

ok this sucks... my fone bill is like.. 70 bucks n im so dead. shit. and im so broke i cant pay it myself =( so im gonna jus let my father pay it n jus let myself get a big scolding.. m.. i think hes used to seeing tt digit already anyway.. but well.. ppl(if anyone visits this place tt is..),please call me more often if u wanna ask me anything.. my incoming is free form 7am to 7pm. n my messages are only reserved for my best bets bets buddies which includes ally, grace n mo n celine.. no one else ok? so if ur none of the names mention, please dun message me from now on or i wun answer or reply it AT all..and if i dun pick up ur calls, it just means im sleeping or im in school or i didnt hear u anyway.. so jus try again later..sorry man i really gotta get this under control already .. i had my message counter going n i found out tt i've sent like 73 messages in a very short period of 5 days n that is about 14 messages evryday n imagine a month.. i would haf sent 420 messages.. i dun even think i send only 14 messgaes.. i think i send like.. 20 per day.. n in a month, it will me 600 messages.. and that is just fucked up ok.. so please cooperate wimme... n no im not having a good time at YJ so please dun ask me how was yj or are u having fun cos im gonna be reinded of yj and im gonna get pissed even tho there were SOME nice ppl there n no, dun assume im having fun cos im not .. i wanna get my ass outta there.. so jus shut up n cooperate wimme cos i'll be in a real bad mood for three months thanks to some fucked up bastard who follows me everywhere

FUCK LA.. i hate school now man.. i hate YJC.. it sucks.. altho the mass dance is fun, but it still sucks... dun ask me why.. it just sucks....i wanna be in CJ..... fuks fucks fucks